..... .... ... .. . mimi

changes...

it so sad how u see people change...doesnt really matter how good or bad they become, how happy or depressing they can be. some cant change and take them years to realize wats good and bad for themself, some sadly can change just in a split second. im not saying im good but i've become worst too. but i've been like that since i dun noe how young. but its realy sad to see some people surrounding me starting to drink alot and smoke, wen i noe they deserve better than that. but some people are just blind coz they need someone to really slap them out of this. such sweet innocent looking people becoming alcholics and smokers wen they were the one who despise all that so much..haiz~ such a pity...

i was sick for the last 5 days. i was down with a fever. i went down to the hospital and they took a blood sample from me to test for dengue. thankfully it was nothing. thanks to all that wished me. i'm okay everyone.

21st of june 2008. eventhou i was sick, i go on with plans to meet her up. coz i wanted to give her the photo album i bought for her. she said she wanted to do the photos with me but at last we chilled together at a water breaker @ ECP. there were fighter jets flying in the sky training for the NDP. it was nice watching it uh. we first met at parkway parade and started out laughing session and went to ECP...till around 10pm. we didint stoped laughing. yeah, i enjoyed myself... it was just like old times...

look at the heart shape the fighter jets did uh. quite amazing view. see it?

she's enjoying the breeze i guess.....

it was amazing how her head still fits right perfectly on my shoulder that day. it was shocking that when i was looking down on thy feet, and i suddenly looked up,i saw her sad face over her shoulder just starring at me. but wen i asked why, she just smiled sadly, shook her head and turned back slowly.it felt so wrong that im spending my time with someone's else fiancee. it was sad to meet her on that day, coz it would be the last time i promised mself to.

the next time would be on her wedding.
thanks for spending some 20 meaningfull days with me. i hope it pays off all the wrong doings i did to her in the past. and i hope she'll be strong in the future.

thank u...

and so i stil dun understand...
why my life is so COMPLICATED...

Monday, June 23, 2008 // 11:28 PM